I feel a little
more enthused about some new material today after briefly running it past my
wife.
It can be hard to judge whether you’re on the right track when you’re yet to try something in front of an audience, when you’ve been working on it by yourself. I’m so used to having the in-built sounding board (being one half of a double act) that it’s strange to not to have that instant feedback. The fact I haven’t done many gigs recently makes me feel a little rusty and unsure of my ability, though I’m sure this apprehension will pass once I get back on stage and in my natural habitat; I’m a sucker for the bright lights: the roar of the greasepaint and the smell of the crowd.
My problem is I’m quick to forget my own capability; seldom thinking anything what I’ve done is any good. This is often the case when writing here: I rarely feel satisfaction on completing a blog, just slight relief at meeting another deadline, frustration at the time it’s taken me to complete it, and irritation at its faults. It’s a stupid way to approach things, as what’s the point of doing it if I don’t enjoy it?
(I like it really; I’m just illustrating my mindset.)
Today's chat reassured me I’m on the right track. I should give myself a break, as I’m doing all right. I just need a mentor, director and editor all rolled in to one, or is that too much to ask?
It can be hard to judge whether you’re on the right track when you’re yet to try something in front of an audience, when you’ve been working on it by yourself. I’m so used to having the in-built sounding board (being one half of a double act) that it’s strange to not to have that instant feedback. The fact I haven’t done many gigs recently makes me feel a little rusty and unsure of my ability, though I’m sure this apprehension will pass once I get back on stage and in my natural habitat; I’m a sucker for the bright lights: the roar of the greasepaint and the smell of the crowd.
My problem is I’m quick to forget my own capability; seldom thinking anything what I’ve done is any good. This is often the case when writing here: I rarely feel satisfaction on completing a blog, just slight relief at meeting another deadline, frustration at the time it’s taken me to complete it, and irritation at its faults. It’s a stupid way to approach things, as what’s the point of doing it if I don’t enjoy it?
(I like it really; I’m just illustrating my mindset.)
Today's chat reassured me I’m on the right track. I should give myself a break, as I’m doing all right. I just need a mentor, director and editor all rolled in to one, or is that too much to ask?