Hi-Diddle-Dee-Dee.
Sometimes, being
an actor can be really, really shit.
I keep getting
penciled for jobs at the moment (which means being down to the last few). I sit
for days, waiting for the phone to ring (stopping occasionally to sleep or
eat). When it eventually does, it’s to let me know that I haven’t got it.
It’s frustrating,
as any one of these jobs could turn my situation around.
I don’t want to
sound too “woe is me”. I chose to take this path. It’s just hard to keep
dusting myself off, metaphorically speaking,
The hardest thing
is to keep a sense of self. You constantly get knock-backs and have to keep
approaching things positively; telling yourself that it’s not personal – it’s
just the way it goes.
I try to remind
myself that things are going in the right direction; it’s just a matter of time
before I get something. I also have to remember what the long game is – and why
I invest so much in my own work.
It would just be
nice if all this energy was reflected in my pay packet.