Chillin'.
I treated myself
to a quiet evening in tonight, after a frenetic few days.
I haven’t done
this for quite a while. It’s nice to have no responsibilities, however briefly.
My wife’s off work this week too, so I should be able to spend more time with
her, rather than rushing off the moment she gets in (which isn’t personal).
That’s not to say
I don’t have things to do. I’m just reminding myself that I don’t need to do
things all the time. I’m allowed to
have a break and switch off. It helps that I’ve recently got stuck into a good
book (An Officer and a Spy by Robert Harris). I’m so used to filling every
moment with writing or admin and then feeling guilty when I’m not. I have a habit
of taking on too much while at the same time feeling I’m not doing enough; a psychiatrist
would have a field day.
This Thursday
sees the next Hitchin Mostly Comedy. Glyn and I won’t have time to write
anything new for it, what with another radio recording looming on Friday, and
having little shared availability outside of that. This normally makes me
tense, as I don’t like treading water when it comes to our performance. I’m
still frustrated this time around, though I’m relieving myself a little
from the responsibility; what will be will be. For the moment, I’m putting my
emphasis on getting ‘…and Ephgrave’ back on track, and preparing for the radio
show. The people who’ve booked for Mostly didn’t do it to see us, after all. We
can afford to keep it brief. Despite this, I’m hoping that the radio show will reinvigorate
us and spur us on to some new ideas. It’s nice to collaborate again on
something that excites us. It’s also a lot more fun than working on your own.